When You Just Don’t Give a Sh*t

Hey all! Spring is finally here and (hopefully) are gone the days of cold and being stuck indoors. I live for sun and warm weather. Not one with nature…..unless you consider drinking adult beverages on a beach nature…then yes…call me nature girl. There’s something about being in the sun, wearing linen pants, feeling a cool breeze on your skin that I live for. Not to mention you can actually come out of hibernation, be social, and appreciate more of your surroundings. Wine festivals, hiking, beach trips, asados (grilling out for my non Spanish speaking folks), and memories that last a lifetime. As I’ve gotten older I’ve really come to appreciate the seasons but more so spring and summer. Older folks weren’t kidding when they said that as you get older, time flies in the blink of an eye. Holy crap….does it ever. There’s also a lot of other things that change as you get older. Such as your tolerance of BS, mean people, and knowing what you want out of life more so than before. I’ve noticed each year I grow more refined and less tolerant of negative people and yucky situations. I find myself wanting to be freer than before, wanting to write and follow my own rules, and literally bursting at the seams with excitement of what’s to come in my future. The icing on the cake was watching Scott Hess give a TED Talk titled: Millennials: Who They Are & Why We Hate Them. I myself have always wondered the difference and in all honesty…thought myself to be a fake me out Gen X’er. When I landed my first local government job in 2013, I swore I would be following in the footsteps of my former supervisor who worked for the county for 33 years and retired with a nice pension. After two years in the position, I knew that there had to be more out there in this big world. I loved my clients and the work I did, but something was missing. I was missing. I was working according to policies and procedures that I did not have a hand in creating and my own creativity and innovation stifled. Sure I pushed the envelope when I could, but almost each time…my hand was smacked and I had to “conform”. After all, I didn’t want to lose my job let alone lose out on all my benefits. But as time went on, I got angrier and angrier. I was stuck in a love triangle with disbelief and disappointment. And before I knew it, not giving a sh*t kicked into full gear. I decided that if I wanted to live by my own rules and work with people how I wanted to, I had to create something outside of the security of a government job. I had to follow my dreams and create my own job…..something that would allow me to color outside the lines. No longer afraid to lose my benefits, steady income, or conforming to avoid getting fired. And no….I’m not just going to screw over my place of employment or clients, but instead I will do what I believe to be moral and ethical to serve those I work with…regardless of the consequences.

Today, I look back and wonder how the hell I could’ve ever thought of staying somewhere that didn’t meet my needs nor support my thirst for innovation. What I got most from Hess’s Ted talk was how Millennials have found a way to make life first and work second. Screw work life balance….life comes first…period. And that is what I am choosing to do. I am working behind the scenes to achieve “life first, work second” and will be following this dream full force in the next two years. Fear has become another factor that I just don’t give a sh*t about and I will make my dreams come true. In all honesty, life is just way too short to focus on making sure you please everyone else or dedicate your life to a workforce that wouldn’t do the same for you. Now if you appreciate the structure and balance of a steady 9-5, love your 9-5 or get what YOU need out of that 9-5…more power to you. All I know is that I can’t do it anymore. I have hit my limit….I need to make my living on what I want to do. I am using these feelings towards creating my empire and choosing happiness and life over anything else.

So ask yourself…are you truly happy with where you are today? If you hesitated to answer or felt the need to justify…..I’m gonna need you to start not giving a sh*t too. You don’t deserve to feel trapped and you sure as hell deserve to be happy and living the best possible life you can. You’d be surprised how your life can change when you don’t tend to fear or object to conformity. Your dreams will never die unless you let them. Choose your happiness, choose a life that you know will give you what you need. After all, it’s better to pick up the pieces from trying and failing then wondering woulda, coulda, shoulda. At least you learn and know what to do different, even if you fail one or a million times. And if you kick it into gear, have a don’t give a sh*t attitude, and believe in what you have to offer, failure is impossible. It won’t be easy, but all worth it in the end. Know that I will be cheering you on and feel free to reach out for support. Much love!


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